Autobiography

Hi!

 Let me tell you something about myself.
First, my name is Feodora Putri Humaira. I'm 14 years old. I'll became 15 on 30th August. I am the only child in my family, and it felt so lonely because i don't have any siblings or anybody to talk in my house besides my parents. I was born in Cimahi, but now I moved to Bandung because my high school is too far from Cimahi. Now, I'm a student in SMA 3 Bandung which is located in Jalan Belitung (this was the reason i moved to Bandung).

I lived in Tanimulya village. It's in Cimahi city, I could say, my home was pretty peaceful, because I lived in a quiet residence. But, my residence is going to be lively when there's an event going on such as Eidul Adha, Qurban, and Ramadan months. My neighbours were so friendly too, so it doesn't felt really lonely in my surroundings.

But since I have to move to Bandung, we (me and my parents) have to 'move on' from my old surroundings. I have to live in my new house, and be separated from my old neighbours which is pretty sad. Now I live in Jl. Gunung Batu, in Pasteur, Bandung city. Living in Bandung means that we have to live in a new high-costed-lifestyle because there's so many mall, and departement store in this city, but we don't really vegetable man (tukang sayur) pass by my residence every day. So that means, we have to buy expensive vegetables at the mall.

 I could tell my childhood was pretty much horrible. I was bullied for years when i was an elementary student. I was an highly introverted person back then. I couldnt make eye contacts with people, and I only made awkward conversation with others. It was because I hated myself back then. I was not confident for embracing my true self.

Then, I realized that I must change. I must be confident about myself. Flaws doesn't matter because everybody have them. Then, few years flew away, and I finally learned to be brave to talk to others, and freed from social anxiety. My best friends are one of my cure from inferiority complexes that I've had in the past. Praying, and being closer to God, somehow made me healed from these anxiety problems I've faced too.

after 6 years from elementary school, I finally became an junior high student. It felt so sad, because my best friend went to a different school as I do. My junior high school was still at the same location as my elementary school, Al Azhar Syifa Budi Parahyangan. In fact, I only moved to a building next to my elementary school. When I was on seventh grade, junior high was so desperate. I get lots of remedials, my grades were the worst in the class. But, there was a happy news that made me so happy. My best friend moved to my school! Then, she got into the same class as me. After that, I became a pretty much diligent student, and finally I could improve my grades. I wanted to compete my friends, and I wanted to be the best.

But, these kind of studying bustle made me lack of consciousness from being grateful to God. I was so busy for seeking compliments and honor from people, so I've became uneasy if I couldn't get any compliments and if I couldn't achieve my targets. I was always seeking for perfection. It made me became an arrogant person, which everybody hated.

Then time passed, my prespective about things also changed. I believe that, making mistakes and getting never ending remedials is better than faking perfections. Being perfect isn't always matter, but improvement, effort, and our presistence do matter. Being humble is important too, because you're never going to be perfect, there will always be somebody who is more better than you are. and God, is the One who made us like this, and The One who made us succeed, so, if you've already achieved your targets, be grateful to God.

Junior high school felt so fast. I didn't even realized that now, I'm already graduated from junior high.
  My life changed (drastically) since I became an high school student. When I was on junior high, i felt like it's not that hard to 'survive' because of the subjects I've studied is not really that hard (if compared to the subjects i've learned in SMA3). Now that I'm already in SMA 3, I was so suprised by how smart  the students in here, and It's kinda hard for me to compete with them.

But, I'm still adapting on being a student in SMA 3. So yes, it's (still) hard for me to live in this scope of new living. I believe that, sooner or later, I could be better than myself in the past.